I still have so much to learn.
It’s not just about life and death. I still have much to learn about my art. I’m an old beginner who is still pushing my way through words.
I am still working to perfect my physical skills let alone my understanding of psychology. Then there are the discoveries of the spiritual awareness, and here I am with only one lifetime and so much to absorb. One lifetime and it’s all so very short … to learn so much. I pray that I will gain constant understanding with such a short time. I want so much to be able to pass it on … to let others see and give us all a better understanding of ourselves and our God. So little time to cover so much. I am only at the point of real understanding.
I want so much to help others fill in the gaps. I am bewildered by all that is there to be discovered. I see myself as an undiscovered land to be experienced in so many different ways.
And I really love it when I have helped someone discover a new part of themselves.
I am finding new parts of myself every day. This world is a beautiful place almost every day. I discover how beautiful this world really is, and it’s a real high moment when I find people like me who see the new ever changing world all around them. Helping someone rediscover their world is an exciting ride. I see things and soon I become part of their actual beauty.
I really like sharing my reality, my discoveries, with them. Especially if that discovery becomes part of them and their new reality.
Where does God play his part in all of this? I think God gets his ultimate pleasure in letting us discover a new talent, a new reality. I think he gets his ultimate pleasure by showing us — to us.
Yesterday evening I went to church. I was absorbing the beautiful colors of the stained glass windows, the soft colors of the reflections on the walls. Here were some things, that were beautiful, that man had made to share with others in the church. God shares his creation everywhere we look. When my wife passed away, I wanted to die also, but for the last several years she kept saying over and over again, “You’re not done yet.” She said, “You will join me when you’re work is done, but not until.”
I know now that much of that work is to see and share all I learn as best I can.
Harry Croghan is an artist, photographer, writer and teacher. He can be reached at 740-852-4906 or by e-mail at firstname.lastname@example.org.